Who am I - is perhaps the most fundamental question in a Spiritual Awakening. It requieres openness to our belief system and  readiness to check our automatic responses. It was said to me that I was born in 1967, but that was born in in 1967? My body, or at least the body that I had then. Today I know that body has gone and in my actual body all cells have changed. Am I then my body? I am not my body, the body is perhaps  inside me. Sometimes I say that I am a father, husband, friend, teacher, but actually I am not any of these functions and all of them simultaneously. I am not my thoughts either, they are generated in me spontaneously and sometimes I control them or give birth to them. I am not my emotions that change and alternate. My real identity is that through which I think of and not think of, that which I can experiment directly, open myself to, grow and surrender. Then I am capable of transcending all those functions that I employed, those fullfill nowadays in my life.

My official history says that I was "born" in a body of a masculine baby in country called Israel. It says that was an introverted child, a young seeker and that at the age of 16 I  was in a nuclear center as a youth investigator trying to understand matter. I then  did an Engineering career and served 6 years as official in the navy. I switched to do a Master in Comparative Literature and wrote a thesis comparing modern theories of literature with those of the quantum mechanics (before this topic was so popular). This history tells that I came to Spain in 1997 to look for my roots, which go back to a family of Castile in the XIIIth century and started to write my doctoral dissertation on the sephardim version of the Book of Splendour. I am not this history. It is the history of my oficial studies next to which it is possible to add the roles of a father of two children, a partner to my wife, a friend and a son to my parents. One can add my work as a musician and poet, but I have learned to release these funccions, and simply be in my heart. The work has been hard, against the totality of my experience, my education and the values of the society, but it was worth and I keep learning. I experience the separation between consciousness and matter and feel they are two sides of the same coin. When I open the subtle field of the consciousness from my heart I see that the history of humanity and of this planet is reflected in different layers of my own being. It seems to me that we all are singular mirrors of one consciousness that comes from the Divine, whose roots are in our heart and that is reflected in matter as a giant hologram. Even the same word "consciousness" it is a term that I seize not having other conceptual means. I wonder, what I have to do in this world, and behind this question hides the assumption that we have "to do" something and even can choose what to do. As if we can create completely our reality. Here also, I have learned that I cannot be disconnected of others, of my partners to life and many times it is not a matter of doing rather of just being and reaching deeper leyers of the heart, or if you want, becoming our  soul. Therefore the universe sometimes guides me to places that I did not choose and I allow it to occur. This is the reason that I decided to share this learning with the others. I feel that I do not have another option and therefore I surrender completely.